Do you hate this as much as I do? You're crazy busy, maybe you've rushed out of the house in the morning. You're focused on something, not paying attention to what's going on around you when all of a sudden you hear "Hey, let's get everyone together for a picture" Whaaaaaaat?? I wasn't planning on a picture today! I didn't use extra moisturizer. I'm having a bad hair day. This shirt makes me look fat. I got about 3 hours sleep last night. Yea, it's like that. Mention a picture and my brain happily gives me 100 reasons why it shouldn't happen.
Take a look at the photo at the top of this blog. I'm the old chic in the middle. Ok, my mom says I'm not old, but it's all relative right? Compared to our beautiful (inside and out btw) Mighty Petunia models, I AM the old chic..by like 30 years!! And when I heard the photographer at our first Mighty Petunia photo shoot say "I want everyone to get together for a group photo" I almost puked. She was being kind. I wanted to punch her. Hard.
Why? Besides believing that I've had a bad experience with a camera in a past life, I hate that few seconds standing in front of a camera before you hear the click. During those seconds I am truly uncomfortable. I'm feverishly reviewing the perfect photo checklist that movie stars use when being photographed. The head tilt (you can see I've got that one going on in the photo). The shoulder drop (Oprah made that one popular). And the ever popular one-leg popped forward pose. I've got so many of them to review in my head now that sometimes I forget the main one, smile!
When I see myself in a picture, I see all the workouts I've missed. All the poor food choices I've made. All the nights I went to bed with my makeup on. All the nights I didn't put moisturizer on my neck (why didn't anyone tell me about that one?). And I feel TERRIBLE about myself. But, here's the thing...NO ONE ELSE IS SEEING THOSE THINGS. They see someone who looks happy. Someone who is having fun building a business. Someone who just had her first photo shoot for her business and loved how it went. They don't see it with all the insecurities I do. I've got Facebook posts and Tweets to prove it!
So, another lesson learned. When getting my picture taken I need to forget the checklist and smile! That's all anyone sees anyway...my big, fat, SMILE!!